Monday, March 13, 2006

When Simon runs it is beautiful, like when people walk on the moon, only faster.

Simon runs. He runs for track and field. He has a problem with empathy. Simon gets pains in his side when he sees other people look helpless. When Simon was 5 his mother gave birth to his baby sister. Because of his empathy, Simon had to be treated for severe stomach cramps during his mother's labor and thusly missed the birth of his only sibling. He has always regretted this.

When he runs Simon doesn't feel empathy for anything. He likes running long enough to build a sweat, so as to feel the wind on his face more powerfully. Occasionally Simon cries when he runs, but only when it is too cold out to break out a sweat on his face. Simons favorite race is the relay. Mostly because he likes touching the fingers of the runner before him. The hairs on his neck always raise when this happens even after hundreds of races. He secretly believes that one can only truly run at their best when it is inherited from another runner, which can only be done through transference on the fingertips. But he would never tell anyone this, because he knows that it is silly and people would likely laugh at him. Being the sensitive boy that he is, he really does not like being laughed at.

The only thing that Simon is afraid of is Alligators. He once had a dream about alligators, the night after his mother died of breast cancer. The alligator was chasing him and he could not get away fast enough and it kept biting at his fingertips. He thought that this was very scary and he crawled into bed with his sister, even though she was only 6 years old and was really no good at running at all. Sometimes when Simon is not winning a race, he just thinks of the alligator and that makes him run much faster.

On his eighteenth birthday Simon's family had a birthday party for him. There was a cake with his name on it, that his sister had made for him. It was his favorite type of cake, which is carrot (although he does NOT eat carrots plain). After the cake was eaten and the presents opened and everyone left Simon felt very anxious, because at the party someone told Simon that he was a man now. It was very quiet in the house and the neon light in the kitchen was flickering and it bothered him. Simon ran from his house. On his way out, he grabbed a baton that he likes to keep by the door, in case he ever needs to run from something. Simon ran until he was very tired. He ran for so long that he fell over in the park. And when he fell he landed on his back and decided that he should stay there and rest for a while. It just seemed like the best thing to do at the time, considering that it was not dark out yet and it was okay to be by himself outside as long as it wasn't dark outside.

Upon awakening, Simon realized that he had been there for a very long time and that it was quite late in the night. He had not been to the park at night before, and he did not recognize it anymore. He was not afraid of the dark, so to speak, but rather that there might be an alligator in the dark places that he could not see. He has heard of this happening before.

Simone ran home. Sometimes, like that night for instance, Simon likes to close his eyes tight and hold his breath when it runs because it makes him dizzy which can be a very nice feeling that helps your forget when things are not so nice.

When Simon runs it is beautiful, like when people walk on the moon, only faster.

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